Bad Mom Moments

I'm going to go out on a limb and say that all mom's have bad mom moments. My worst bad mom moment is so embarrassing that years later I still haven't shared it with anyone but my husband. Anyway. I feel like deployment makes these moments more frequent and then (in true deployment mom guilt mode) I overanalyze them. Even in the short period of time that John has been gone, I feel like there have been a million bad mom moments. So, what's a mom to do but share her bad mom moments? Here are a few of the ones that I have chalked up in the last two weeks.

• The other night I fell asleep with the t.v. on (sometimes the silence in the night is just too much) and I woke up at about 1 a.m. to find G sitting in my bed intently watching American Pickers. I have no idea how long he was there before I woke up.


• Approximately 5 times have I gotten into the car and put it in gear before G has yelled, at the top of his lungs, "I'M NOT BUCKLED IN". (Note -- I've never driven with him unbuckled, so don't freak out).


• The other day I was vacuuming and there was a dime on the floor. I told G to come pick it up and put it "away" with the money he takes to offering on Sunday. Instead of making sure that he did it, like I normally do, I went back to vacuuming only to have P walk up a few minutes later and say "Mommy, Gunnar gave me some money and I put it in my mouth and now I can't find it". That's right, ladies and gentlemen, she swallowed it.


• When I was doing laundry yesterday I realized that the kids pajamas outnumbered their day clothes 2 to 1. We have to get out more.

There you have it, some of my best and brightest moments.

All About Gunnar

I know that it's hard to believe, but four years ago today I first held my baby boy. Gunnar took four years of fertility treatment, just over $47,000, and a miracle from God to conceive. It's hard to believe that at this point we have had him for just as long as we tried for him.
We could not be more blessed to have him, so todays thankful list is all about Gunnar, so here goes.
When it comes to Gunnar I am thankful...

48. for his capacity for compassion -- G hates to see other people sad and everytime he sees me cry (even happy tears) he sheds a few tears of his and wants to know what he can do to make it better.
49. that his sister is his best friend -- G & P may argue and bicker like all brothers and sisters, but they hate being apart and G revels in making P laugh.
50. for his giving heart -- today G got a birthday card from Aunt Nancy with two $5 bills in it. Immediately, he looked at P and said "look Patton, one for you and one for me, isn't that exciting?".
51. that he is his fathers son -- not only is G a spitting image of John, but he also shares most of his habits and tendencies, which ensures that he will grow up to be an amazing man.
52. for his love for God -- I am often humbled by the way that G loves God and the way that he lives that out.
53. for his sense of humor -- just like his dad, not a day goes by when G doesn't make me laugh until my stomach hurts.
54. that God picked me to be his mom.